I told her, That sounds like a story. (Hoping so.) But there’ve certainly been a few sufferers who’ve done away with themselves.
She sketched the sign of the cross on her chest.
One man went to buy medicine for himself and his family, I said. Cut through a park, went by a pond…and the constables found him facedown among the swans.
Bridie gasped. Drowned?
Though he mightn’t have been thinking straight. Maybe he was burning up and the water looked so deliciously cool? Or he stumbled in by mistake?
She eyed Ita Noonan. We should keep an eye on your one with the bad fever, so.
Oh, I never leave any sharp instruments near a delirious patient, or bandages.
Bridie’s smooth forehead creased. Where’s the harm in bandages?
I mimed winding one around my neck.
Oh.
I didn’t tell Bridie about a girl who’d managed to half throttle herself in the lavatory with a bandage before Sister Finnigan had found her. No fever, in her case, but a reason for despair: twelve years old and seven months gone. From hints she let slip, we suspected her father.
Standing by the cot on the left, Bridie gazed down at Ita Noonan. Bluish, she remarked.
What’s that?
Her fingernails. Is that from the thing you were telling me—red, brown, blue, black?
I hurried over. Ita Noonan’s nailbeds had indeed darkened, which could be advancing cyanosis, but her face was still red and clammy. What alarmed me more was her wheeze, like air trapped in bagpipes, the leather stretching. I counted her pantings by my watch—thirty-six respirations a minute, heart and lungs working full tilt. She was a rower frantically oaring towards the bank. She was also shivering, so I swaddled her up in her shawl and another blanket. Her pulse was up to 104 beats per minute, but the force seemed much weaker to me.
Are you dizzy at all, Mrs. Noonan?
She muttered something I didn’t catch.
For low blood pressure, I should elevate her feet on a square bedrest, but that would be the very worst position for her congested lungs. My mind went around and around in a panicky, defeated loop. So I did nothing; I watched and waited.
A tap at the door: Father Xavier.
The priest had the kind of lined, sweet face that made it impossible to guess his age; he could have been anywhere from fifty to a hundred years old. Nurse Power, he said in his wintry voice, do we have a Mrs. Garrett?
Dr. Lynn had sent the wrong chaplain. I pointed to her bed. But she’s a Protestant, Father. Church of Ireland.
Ghost-faced, Delia Garrett had slid halfway down the pillows, her tea cooling on the little cabinet beside her, a biscuit dissolving in the saucer.
The priest nodded. I’m afraid the reverend’s been struck down. There’s only me today, for right- and left-footers alike. Well, as they say, all cats are grey in the dark.
I explained to Bridie, Father Xavier used to be the Roman Catholic chaplain here till he retired and Father Dominic stepped in.
Only Father Dominic too went down with the flu last week, he said, so I’ve been summoned back.
I tucked a stool for him beside Delia Garrett’s bed. Sorry there’s so little room, Father.
No matter. I stiffen up when I sit for too long.
He positioned himself against the wall.
Mrs. Garrett, I’m standing in for my Church of Ireland colleague, as he’s under the weather, if you’ve no objection?
Her closed eyelids didn’t even flicker. Asleep, I wondered, or ignoring him?
He leaned over her. I’m very sorry for your trouble.
No response.
Father Xavier sighed. I believe Christians of all persuasions can agree on grounds to hope, at least, that in His infinite mercy, the Lord will provide some mechanism of salvation for those who pass away in the womb, unbaptised through no fault of their own.
A sob wracked Delia Garrett, then turned into a cough. I knew the fellow meant well, but I wished he’d leave her alone.
Didn’t Jesus say to let the children come to Him? So you must entrust your little one to His loving care now, and to the guardian angels.
She must have heard that, because she turned her face away sharply.
The old man straightened up painfully and said, I’ll let you rest.
Coming over to the desk, he asked, Have you a new junior, Nurse Power?
Just a skivvy, said Bridie before I could answer. A replacement, like yourself.
The priest looked back at me and jerked his head at her. I see she’s a quick one.
I said: Don’t I know it, Father.
He sneezed and wiped his great reddened nose. Excuse me, ladies.
I asked, Have you a cold brewing?
I’m just getting over a little dose of this flu.
If I may, Father—
I put the back of my hand to his forehead, which was warmish. Shouldn’t you be in bed, then, to be on the safe side?
Ah, I’d rather walk it off, said Father Xavier. I might as well be useful on the fever wards.
But the strain—considering your…
He raised his tufted eyebrows. Considering my age, young lady, how much would it matter in the greater scheme of things if I were taken this very night?
Bridie let out a snort.
Father Xavier winked at her. I’ll be grand. I hear the old are getting through this better than the young.
I qualified that: Well, as a general rule.
The priest said briskly, His ways are mysterious.
Delia Garrett’s eyes were open now, her gaze following the old man out the door. She looked hollowed out.
I couldn’t bear to see her this way. Hot whiskey, Mrs. Garrett?
As soon as I handed her the cup, she drained it. Then lay back on her pillows and closed her eyes.
Quiet again. A chance to catch one’s breath after going like a juggler from minute to hectic minute.
I stared at the slumped figure of Ita Noonan. Head up, to ease her breathing, or feet up, for better pulse force? Or keep her flat—would that be the best compromise or no good for either problem? Every symptom was a word, yes, but I couldn’t understand them, couldn’t follow.
Bridie was mopping the floor, unasked. Such generous stamina this young woman had. I thanked her.
You’re welcome, Julia.
She said my first name a little shyly, as if trying it on for size.
Outside the window, it was black; all the light had slipped away now.
Bridie remarked, I hate the old evenings.
Do you?
When the night draws in and you have to go to bed, but you can’t get to sleep no matter how you try. Cursing yourself because you’ll be sorry in the morning when you can’t drag yourself up at the bell.
That sounded like a bleak life. I wondered whether the Sweeneys were in very straitened circumstances. Were Bridie’s parents harsh with her?
A thump.
I looked at the cot on the left but it was empty, the sheets a risen wave. For half a stupid moment, I couldn’t tell where Ita Noonan had gone.
I ran around Mary O’Rahilly’s bed, barking my shin on the metal.
Against the skirting board, Ita Noonan thrashed like a fish, eyes rolled back. Her legs were trapped in the blankets, her arms lashing out. She banged her head on the corner of the little cabinet.
Bridie cried out, Jesus wept!
I couldn’t tell if Ita Noonan was breathing. A stink went up from her bowels. I knelt over her, crammed a pillow behind her head. One hand whacked me on the breast.
Should we stick a spoon in her mouth? asked Bridie.