Lore’s heart lurched in her chest.
No.
Not Miles. Not Castor. Not Van. Not Iro.
Not her city.
A calm certainty took control of Lore’s mind, quieting the chaotic storm of her thoughts and clarifying the choice. Accepting it, even as she saw all their faces—even as she thought of her family and knew their souls would never find peace.
There was one last choice. At least she would be the one to make it.
I’m sorry, she thought. There would be a single god left for Castor to face, but no one would ever possess the aegis again.
Lore’s unmarred hand gripped the broken piece of the spear’s shaft still attached to the sauroter and, with a cry, she pulled it from her leg. She thought of her sisters. Her fearless mother. Her father’s face glowing in their campfire’s light, showing her how to grip the hilt of a dagger.
Shift your thumb to the spine of the hilt, Melora. It’ll give you better control.
“No.” She raised her voice, making sure the word thundered.
Athena’s nostrils flared. “Impertinent child—”
Lore stared up at her through the strands of her dark hair. “The choice is mine.”
She turned the blade on herself and slid it into her chest.
LORE HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT that there would be more to death than this.
The hunters believed that there was no greater honor than to die on the hunt in the pursuit of glory, rather than be taken by Thanatos, the god of gentle death. She knew better than to buy into the bullshit, but some part of her still wanted to believe that the last fire of pain would burn away her past and transform her into someone who would be judged worthy in the world below.
Instead, death was only numbing. Her mind shut itself down to protect her from the shock of the steel parting her skin and scraping across bone.
Her hand slid from the makeshift weapon, falling limply into her lap.
There was a terrible scream, like the screech of a saw against metal.
Look, Lore thought. Open your eyes.
It was the gray-eyed goddess.
“Oh, you fool,” Athena snarled. “I will not let you do this—I will not allow you to take it from me!”
“You won’t need it . . .” Lore got out, “where . . . you’re . . . going. . . .”
One hand closed around Lore’s neck, tightening as if to break it. Athena’s face was rigid with fury, her teeth bared. Undaunted, and unbowed by the weakness of impending death.
“You truly believed it all,” Athena said, her voice grating. “You thought I would be so foolish as to bind my life to an impetuous mortal. To you? You have done this for nothing!”
Horror sliced through Lore. She stared up at the goddess, struggling to focus as blackness stained her vision. Soon, she could only see the maelstrom of sparks swirling in Athena’s eyes.
Not for nothing, Lore thought, the words faint in her mind.
It hadn’t just been to kill Athena. Lore had wanted to ensure no one could ever possess the aegis again. She had done that, at least—that one thing, after so many mistakes, she had done right.
Athena pulled back, drawing in on herself. She remained there, her gaze bearing down on Lore. The intricate machine that was her mind whirled until she found control once more.
“I will force the false Apollo to heal you,” Athena said. “And you will take me to it.”
No—
Lore dragged herself away, digging her nails against the rough ground to claw her way forward. The goddess had leaned her dory against the wall; Lore could reach it if she could will her body to move. Not before I kill
you—
Athena gripped her by the hair, ripping chunks of it from her scalp. She dragged Lore toward the door and the tunnel beyond it.
But a moment later, the goddess released her. Lore fell to the wet ground. The impact split her chin open. Blood poured down over her throat, hot against her cold skin.
“No . . .” the goddess said, taking a step back and reclaiming her dory. “I think . . . not.”
Lore’s lips parted, but the words she wanted to say sank into the growing darkness in her mind and disappeared. Ice flooded her veins where her blood had once been.
“There is another way,” Athena said slowly, as if unwinding her own reasoning.
Lore let out a strangled roar—of rage, of anguish.
The goddess turned to leave, but paused in the doorway of the cell. She cast one last look over her shoulder, making a noise of false sympathy. “It is a shame you did not even possess the courage to drive the blade through your heart.”
“I’ll kill . . . you . . .” Lore whispered, but there was no answer.
There would never be an answer.
There was only the dark air, and the silence, and the waiting.
SOMEHOW, DESPITE THE HOUR, the moon was still up in the sky, even as it faded with the arrival of the pale dawn. Lore had kept her gaze on its milky crescent to avoid having to look at the streets of her neighborhood. Now, as she stood in front of her family’s apartment building, she forced herself to look at the window she had slipped through a few hours before.
It was closed.
She let out a soft breath, fear biting at her again. Her father and mother were up.
She balled her fists and pressed them against her eyes, forcing herself to breathe and not cry.
The lies were so easy—she went to see Castor, she wanted to watch the last few hours of the Agon, she thought about running away but came back—but the truth made her feel like she had stabbed a knife into her belly. She had to tell them. Their punishment would never be as bad as the Kadmides’ would be. Her parents would know what to do.
Lore didn’t bother climbing to her bedroom window. She used the building’s front door.
Squaring her shoulders and swallowing the sour taste in her mouth, she made her way up the many flights of stairs, to the sixth floor. Already, the previous night was starting to feel more like a dream than a memory.
Their apartment was at the very end of the silent hallway. Lore’s heart hammered in her ears. They were going to be so angry. She would have to try to find a way to make them understand, to convince them to stay in the city despite what had happened. She didn’t want to leave Castor or New York City. Not like this.
Lore paused outside their apartment’s door, pressing her forehead against its smooth surface and closing her eyes. She listened for the sound of her parents inside. Making their coffee, feeding Damara, talking quietly as they listened to the news.
But she heard nothing.
Something wet soaked through the toe of her old tennis shoes. Lore opened her eyes at the sensation.
Dark blood seeped out through the crack below the door and pooled around her feet.
OLYMPIA WAS WAITING FOR her in the night’s shadows.
She sat at the edge of the bed they shared, her hair rumpled by sleep, her eyes too tired to focus. Lore claimed the space beside her, watching as the wind sneaked through the nearby window and ruffled the drawings of Olympia’s that Lore had taped to their wall.
Her sister turned toward her. Lore began to cry.
“Don’t fight, Lo,” she whispered, clutching at the front of Lore’s shirt. “Don’t fight. Go to sleep.”
Lore closed her eyes, but the tears wouldn’t stop.