It was almost as if he were there, beside her, whispering his taunts, touching her with hands that were far too bold, too callused to belong to a blueblooded prince.
She’d never reacted to Trevis this way. Rolling onto her side, she allowed herself to think about her former employer, careful that she did not collide into any of the humiliation that usually accompanied thoughts of him.
He’d been her best friend since childhood, comfortable and constant—he even stood up to those who would bully her. She thought they would spend the rest of their lives together. His kisses had been nice . . . but apparently that hadn’t been desire. Not true desire. She recognized that now. She knew.
After what she felt tonight in that armoire, she knew she’d been wrong. Rather appalling when she considered the prince had not even truly kissed her. Her belly had never filled with butterflies before tonight, her lungs had never felt so tight she couldn’t draw breath.
Her cheeks warmed as she imagined what an actual kiss from Prince Sevastian would feel like. She curled into a small ball, drawing her legs tightly to her chest, and let her imagination take over.
She closed her eyes, visualizing his face as close as it had been earlier. Only in her mind his mouth closed over hers, his lips moved, caressed . . .
Her eyes flew open with a gasp. She had no business entertaining such fantasies. Certainly not for a wicked man who thought her beneath his regard—save for a quick tryst. Eyes wide, she stared out at her bedchamber. Suddenly the night loomed endlessly.
Snow started to fall in fat wet flakes, licking at the windowpanes. She rearranged the pillows behind her head and settled back. Slipping a hand beneath her cheek, she watched the flurries of white outside her window, letting the sight block out everything, everyone, especially her fleeting glimpse of Prince Sevastian’s smile.
Chapter Six
The dowager duchess’s country seat sat nestled amid manicured lawns. A great lake stretched before the massive gray-stone edifice like an inviting carpet of velvet blue. She could almost imagine the geese floating across the lake’s glassy surface in the spring.
Grier held her breath as they were ushered up several steps into a cathedrallike foyer and tried not to feel like a total impostor. The butler led them to the drawing room. Discordant music erupted from a pianoforte within, escaping through the tall, cracked double doors. The butler pushed the doors open and guided them to the gathered group.
Apparently they were the last to arrive. Several other guests took their tea, the dowager included. She sat in a great throne of a chair before the fire, reigning like a pasha over the assembly. Following the butler’s stiffly delivered introductions, the grande dame waved them to chairs with plump, beringed fingers.
Jack forged ahead like a blustery wind, greeting the dowager in jarring tones, heedless of the soft tones everyone else used as a young lady painfully banged her way on the pianoforte.
Grier and Cleo exchanged glances at the smirks her father earned from the half-dozen guests lounging in chaises and sofas about the room. Wealthy or not, invited or not, they were objects of disdain for the dowager’s guests.
Grier pasted a polite smile on her face and tried not to feel like a mongrel who snuck inside to escape the storm. She belonged here just as much as anybody else. She was an invited guest.
For some reason the image of Prince Sevastian’s face swam in her mind just then. He, of course, would disagree. He thought she was common and beneath such elevated company. The realization stung as it shouldn’t. She bit back a groan of frustration that he’d found a way into her head again.
Shaking memories of him away, she lifted her chin a notch and inquired after the dowager’s health.
The dowager offered a reply and smiled. Grier tried to detect artifice in the brittle curve of her ashen lips—the same artifice she met at every turn within the ton —but then she called a stop to such wonderings. Such thoughts were pointless. Of course the smile was a sham. The dowager didn’t want Grier or Cleo to wed her grandson. She merely wanted Jack’s fortune to save her family.
It didn’t take much to assess the direness of the dowager’s situation. The evidence was there, all around Grier. The faded wallpaper wouldn’t be so obvious but for the few squares of brighter, cleaner paper where paintings had once hung. Sold to fetch much-needed funds, she surmised. Grier’s gaze darted to the maids standing in attendance. Likely to pay for the servants required to run this mausoleum.
And there were other signs. The drawing room furniture, once of the finest quality, was worn and faded. Something she easily noted after residing with her father for the last month and being surrounded with the finest furnishings and most lavish decor.
The dowager snapped her wrist and the viscount appeared, lifting up from a chaise across the room, where he had been in close conversation with a pretty brunette. The girl’s eyes followed him longingly as he moved to his grandmother’s side and bowed over Grier and Cleo. On the other side of the girl, her plump friend patted her arm consolingly and stared sourly at Grier.
Grier frowned. Was the girl in love with him? Was he in love with her? Perfect. Another reason to feel uncomfortable.
The viscount did his part admirably though. He smiled and bowed over their hands with perfect grace. His boyish good looks betrayed nothing. He showed no sign that his heart was otherwise engaged. A gentleman to the core. Unlike a certain prince whose memory she could not seem to dismiss.
Grier angled her head and took a bracing breath, reprimanding herself for thinking of that brash scoundrel again. Would he never be far from her thoughts? Over the course of their journey to reach the dowager’s estate, his face and taunting words filled her head more often than not. Strange, really.
Holy hellfire . She almost imagined that one of the two gentlemen stepping inside the drawing room even now resembled him.
She blinked and looked again as he approached. The gentleman didn’t resemble him. It was he.
He was here. Her prince was here. No! Not her prince. She swallowed tightly, cursing herself for that slip. He wasn’t her anything.
Panic swelled up in her chest, tightening her throat. How was she to forget him when he attended the same house party with her? He would be here, underfoot the entire time. For well over a week. She would see him down the length of the dinner table, constantly hear his voice everywhere she turned.
His gaze found her, those gold eyes widening with recognition. Something akin to amusement flickered in his eyes before it was gone, banked. His well-formed mouth flattened into an unsmiling line.
She sniffed and held up her chin, struggling to appear unaffected. She stared coolly at him, through him, behaving like him—the austere, unfeeling royal. She behaved as though she didn’t know him at all. And she didn’t. Not really. Their one evening together scarcely constituted an acquaintance.
Her sister lightly touched her elbow, and she dragged her attention back to the viscount, focusing on what he was saying.
“. . . delighted you are here. When you did not arrive yesterday with everyone else, we feared the elements would keep you from joining us. Such wretched weather. I profess all the gentlemen present are heaving a sigh of relief at the arrival of two more such lovely ladies.”
“That’s kind of you to say, my lord,” Grier murmured.
The viscount pressed a hand to his heart. “I only speak the truth.”
“Quite so, quite so,” an elderly man exclaimed, banging his walking stick upon the floor as he swept both Grier and Cleo a lecherous look.
Lord Tolliver nodded. “The marquis was quite displeased at the lack of females present.”
“Now it shall be a true country party.” The old man’s leer deepened, revealing missing teeth and a wet, roiling tongue that seemed to have difficulty staying inside his mouth.
Cleo managed to get out a polite response, but Grier could only cringe at the old man. Surely she was not to consider him? The viscount was vastly more appealing.
“Eh, lovely.” The marquis crooked a finger at Grier. “Come sit beside me.”
Grier gave him a wobbly smile, eyeing the small settee upon which he sat with great reluctance. Never had she felt so out of place, wondering what the proper thing to do was.
She felt the prince’s gaze on her back, burning through her clothing, branding her, seeming to call her out for the impostor she was. At that moment, she had never felt the truth of that more keenly. She was an impostor, fighting for position in a world that didn’t want her. Resolve firmed her lips. A world that didn’t want her yet .
“Cease your flirting, Quibbly,” the dowager called. “Can’t you see you’re frightening the girl?”
Frightening wouldn’t be precisely accurate. Repulsing would be closer to the truth.
Grier smiled, but her lips felt brittle and tight on her face. Thankfully Jack provided a distraction just then, diving into a diatribe on their perilous journey across snow-laden roads.
Her father did not exaggerate. Cleo had come down with an ague, delaying their departure a day. A day in which a winter storm arrived. The roads had been nearly impassable, but that hadn’t deterred Jack. Not from a house party at the dowager’s estate.
Grier and Cleo settled back onto the comfortable sofa as a silent maid placed a teacup in her hands. Grier took a warming sip, listening as her father described the two hours they spent mired in a snowdrift while the driver, the groom, and her father labored to pull them free.
“Quite the adventure,” a voice murmured beside her.
She sent a sharp glance to her left.
Stealthily as a jungle cat, the prince had positioned himself just above her, standing with soldierlike rigidity, his hands clasped behind him. She straightened her spine and looked away. His voice, however, was still there, puckering her skin to gooseflesh. “How fortunate we are to have you here safely with us.”
She slid him another look, trying to decipher if he mocked her and unable to hide her shock that he even deigned to speak to her where it might be witnessed. Lifting her cup to her lips, she murmured softly, “Are you certain you wish to be seen speaking to me, Your Highness?”
His gold eyes glinted down at her. “I see no harm.”
“How magnanimous of you.”
“Ah, Your Highness, have you met the Misses Hadley?” The viscount had apparently noted their exchange. He looked back and forth between them.
She opened her mouth to deny having met the prince, but he spoke first. “Yes. In Town.”
“Ah, of course.” The viscount nodded cheerfully. He really was a nice sort. Quite willing to be the sacrificial lamb. Or was he? His stare drifted, floating somewhere beyond her shoulder as he sipped from his teacup.
She followed his gaze to the lovely girl she’d spied him talking with earlier. At Grier’s stare she quickly looked away, a pretty pink stain coloring her cheeks. But not before Grier saw that she, too, had been looking at the viscount.
Shifting uncomfortably, she faced forward again, feigning interest as her father regaled the room with their adventures. Only she couldn’t focus on him for long. Not when she felt the stare of the prince mere feet away. A hot itchiness spread across her face until she had to look up at him again.
He stared at her with what was becoming familiar aloofness. Why did he bother to look at her at all?
With a snap of her head, she faced forward again.
After some moments, the dowager interrupted her father’s narrative. “My, how harrowing. Perhaps your daughters would care to see their rooms and refresh themselves before dinner?”
Grier tried not to nod too earnestly at the suggestion. Cleo rose beside her. A maid appeared as if by magic from a remote corner of the room to escort them.
As they left, Grier felt one intent stare drilling into her back. It did not require much imagination to conclude who watched her so intently. The very same man who stared at her so coldly and deemed her fit only for a tryst—not for mingling among the echelons of Society.