Commander in Chief Page 29
“. . . stunned when President Hamilton kissed the first lady on the dance floor. White House press has been asking the question on everyone’s mind during this morning’s press conference. Is President Hamilton dating Miss Charlotte Wells? The official stance of the White House is yes.”
It’s all over. I got a hundred calls today. Alan called too, his disappointment evident in his voice, considering he once maybe wanted to be the one dating me.
“You’re dating the president of the United States?”
Kayla: “I could have died when I saw the photo! I’m missing out on so much that’s happening! Charlotte! Tell me everything!”
And my mother: “I don’t know what to say. Your father and I . . .” She sounded teary. “You love him?”
“You know the answer to that, Mom. Why else would I be here? I wouldn’t ever have dreamed of finding the courage to try on a role this big if it weren’t attached to Matthew.”
“Then that’s all that matters.”
They can’t get enough of it. Not the public, not our friends and family. Matt says Beckett called and simply said, “You go, sir!”
They absolutely cannot get enough of the story.
Matthew turns off the TV as he hits the bed, where I lie in wait—so ready, so anxious, gravitating toward him as he reaches out with one powerful arm.
I can feel it—the electricity between us, the connection too strong to deny, always there, crackling, whipping around us, tugging us closer and closer yet never close enough.
We make fierce love. He tells me how beautiful I am, how special, how much he wants me. We’re sweaty and sated, my body buzzing in the aftermath, when there’s a knock on the door.
Matt leaps out of bed and slips into his slacks.
“Mr. President.” It’s Dale Coin’s voice.
Matt swings the door open and I pull the sheets up, mortified and scared to see the grim look on Dale’s face.
“There’s been a situation. Six of our crew members have been taken hostage in Syria.”
From lowered lids, Matt shoots a commanding look at me. “I’ll be back.”
“Matthew . . .” I begin, just not knowing what to say.
His eyes meet mine harshly as he slips on his shirt.
A knife of pain and concern for our people gets trapped in my throat. Matt charges down the hall, and I get dressed quickly and head to my own bedroom, where I pace, pace, pace—and pray.
I see it on the news.
The harsh reality of every catastrophe that happens to the United States of America too close now. So close. So real.
These are our people. My country attacked. My guy.
This being first lady isn’t just the interviews, the pretty dresses. It’s everything else.
I’m not sure I’m prepared. That the little bubble of a perfect life my parents created for their only daughter prepared me for this—to live this so closely.
It’s hard to keep my hope alive when I see the burning American flag on television that the rebel forces in Syria have lit.
The exploded armament trucks that had carried our troops.
I break down and cry, and I eventually fall asleep, only to wake up to my bedroom door being opened.
Matthew’s silhouette fills the doorway.
Whatever he’s ordered done—is done. I can see it in his eyes.
And a part of me doesn’t want to know if it will take more casualties, what the exact situation is.
I’m scared. I’m hurting for our country. I’m hurting for my president.
He starts walking forward, and I stand on wobbly legs, the urge to embrace him and have him embrace me too strong—but the pain feels just as strong.
He tugs on the flimsy ribbon holding my nightgown closed. “Are you okay?” I whisper.
His hand pauses; he looks at me.
“Do you want to talk?” I ask.
“No,” he rasps.
I slide my fingers up his jaw, the stubble abrading my fingertips as I rise up on tiptoe and kiss him. No tongue, just a kiss. “I don’t know what I can do. The whole country is crying. I feel a pain like I’ve never experienced, as if the whole world’s pain is mine now.”
“It is. It’s ours.” His eyes hold mine. My lungs feel like rocks; no amount of air is able to fill them.
“Let me just . . .” I glance down at myself, sure that my eyes are swollen and I look a sight. I want to look pretty; I want him to lose himself in me. I want him to take whatever he needs.
I head to the bathroom. I inhale and put water on my face, brush my hair. Try to look pretty for him. I pry the nightgown off—stripping. Stripping for him.
I step out, and he’s gone.
I fasten on a robe and head out of my room. He’s sitting in the Oval, his head in his hands, staring blindly down at some papers.
I walk in and he lifts his head, and I open my robe. “If you think I can’t handle what you have to give me right now, you’re wrong,” I say, my voice thick with emotion.
His jaw starts ticking as I shrug my arms from my robe sleeves.
He comes to a stand and I throw the robe at my feet. He catches me when I approach, boosts me up to his desk, spreads my legs open, and licks me.
Right there.
I come.
I come.
A moan of ecstasy slips past my lips as I jerk beneath his mouth, coming with his mouth pressing tighter and deeper on me, Matt drinking up my orgasm like a starved man.
I sag with a soft cry.
Matt eases himself up and looks down at me, his pupils so dilated I can hardly make out the color of his eyes.
He scoops me up and covers me with my robe.
And steps outside.