I turn around and reach for the closest thing to me, slamming it down next to my feet before punching a hole through the wall. What’s a few more breaks or scratches going to hurt? Maybe the physical pain in my hands will take away from the pain that is now throbbing in my chest. Trying to catch my breath, I fall against the wall behind me and drag my back down it until I’m on the floor burying my hands in the thickness of my hair.

So this is what love truly feels like . . . and losing it hurts like a bitch.

Chapter One

Hemy

Four years later . . .

The air around me smells of booze, sex, and drugs, my usual Saturday night scene. At one point I lived for these wild nights that consist of bodies upon bodies of people just looking to let loose, get fucked up, and fucked hard without the harsh judgments of society. It became my life; my very reason to breathe . . . until it fucked my life up. Then it became my ruin.

I’m leaning against the wall, casually chillin’ in the shadows while slamming back a bottle of Whiskey. Lurking in the darkness is the person I’ve become. I’ve been at it for the last hour. This party is piled high with willing pussy and roaming hands, yet I’ve let my thoughts pull me under and drown me in my own fucked up world of mistakes and regret. Tonight, I may need a bit of a challenge to get me off. I’m going to need it rough, deep and fast.

While slamming back another drink of Whiskey my eyes stray over to a petite brunette; Nico’s new girl. I met Nico a few years ago at one of these parties while I was high out of my mind. We partied together and we slowly became friends. I like him because he’s just as fucked up and twisted as I am.

Nico’s girl is slowly swaying her hips to a seductive song while rubbing her ass all over his dick. Her eyes are glued to me, eyeing me up and down like a siren luring her next victim. Fucking perfect. I like the seductress types, because they usually like the rough and rowdy sex that I require. The more she dances the more erotic her moves become. She’s working it well, because I feel my feet moving in her direction, not thinking of anything but giving her what she wants. It’s a nice distraction.

Nico’s lost in his own little world, grinding himself on her backside, but he stops to tilt back a drink of beer and takes notice of me approaching. He watches me with satisfaction; his eyes say it all. A cocky smirk takes over his lips as he gives me a head nod and steps aside. He knows exactly what’s coming, and he welcomes it. “Hey, man.” He gives me a fist pound before practically pushing his woman into my arms. “Take care of Peyton for me. I know you’ll treat her right, man.” Most men don’t want to share once they’ve claimed a pussy, but Nico thrives on it. I told you he is just as fucked up as I am.

I grab his girl by the hip and pull her flush against my body. Grinding my hips in rhythm of the music, I press her against the wall and brush my tongue over her lips, causing her to moan out and wrap her arms around me. Our bodies press into each other’s as I lean in to whisper in her ear. “You’ve been watching me all night.” I press my body a little closer to hers and tug her hair a little. “Are you sure you can handle me once you get me? I’m not so sure Nico has told you about me. I don’t fuck like a boy I fuck like a man. I like it wild, wet, rough, and rowdy. If you want a lover this is your chance to back out. ”

She sucks in her bottom lip before turning to Nico who is now standing right next to us with a smile on his face. “So this is Hemy, huh?” She gives me a look of approval before letting out a growl and leaning over to bite Nico’s lip. “I can definitely get down with this, baby. Are you sure?”

Nico nods while tilting back another drink of beer.

Don’t ask me why, but Nico has this weird shit of getting off to me fucking his girls. It’s like it turns him on to know that I’ve been inside them. It could always be that he just enjoys the show. Either way, I’m not complaining.

I slide one hand up her skirt to grip her tight little ass while running my lips up her neck. “You want me to take you upstairs and fuck you? I bet you’re already wet for me.” She nods her head and plays with the top button of my shirt while biting her lip with need. “Has Nico told you the filthy things I do, because I’m not one to take it easy? Once I’m inside you, it’s deep and hard. There’s no in between, sweetheart.”

She reaches up to grip my hair as Nico pushes behind her with his body and wraps one of her legs around my waist. He grips her thigh and bites her neck. The way that he’s grinding his hips is causing her pussy to rub against my erection, which makes me want to fuck right here in this crowded room; it wouldn’t be the first time. “This is so hot right now,” she breathes. “I’m ready for this.” She lets out a satisfied moan and leans her head back and turns it to the side so that Nico can crush his lips against hers.

Ignoring everyone around us, I lace my hand in the back of her hair and run my tongue over her neck as she grinds into me while kissing Nico. I pull away from her neck and run my tongue over my bottom lip. “Are you sure you can handle me giving your girl a good fuck, Nico? I have some pent up shit to get out. I’m not playing it fucking nice tonight.”

“Mmm.” He releases the lock their lips have been in, and nods his head. Grasping the top of her head, he pulls downward, revealing her neck closer to his lips for access. “I need this shit tonight. We both want it and you know damn well that you do too,” he says with a cocked eyebrow. “Don’t back out on me, Hemy.”

I smirk as Nico runs his tongue along her jugular and steps back, pushing his hair out of his face. “You know I’m down. Just giving your ass a warning.”

With force, I grip Peyton’s thighs and pick her up to wrap her legs around my hips. Immediately, she locks them around my waist. The lust in her eyes is thick. No matter the girl, they all have a wild side waiting to be released.

I turn back to Nico while gripping Peyton’s ass and sliding one hand under her short dress. There is nothing but a thin string between her pussy and my fingers. I can feel her wetness coating me as she moves back and forth, swaying her hips against me. “You ready to watch Peyton’s pretty little pussy get fucked?”

Nico watches me as I push my way through the crowd with his girl plastered to my front. He usually gives me time alone first before he joins in. It’s a little routine that he has developed since we started this.