sorry i haven’t written. its been insane with the practicing. that was funny about the french pigeons being fed contraceptive seeds. those crazy

parisians. they should put it in the school pizza here, there’ve been at least six preggos this year. bridge says ur coming to our show. lookin

forward to it, annabel lee. later. toph.

“Not much. But he’s looking forward to seeing me,” I add.

Mer grins. “You must be so psyched.”

We startle at the sound of breaking glass. St. Clair has kicked a bottle into the gutter.

“You okay?” she asks him.

But he turns to me. “Have you had a chance to look at that poetry book I got you?”

I’m so surprised, it takes a moment to answer. “Uh, no. We don’t have to read it until next semester, right?” I turn to Mer and explain. “He bought me the Neruda book.”

She whips her head toward St. Clair, who adjusts his face away from her scrutiny. “Yeah, well . I was just wondering. Since you hadn’t mentioned it ...”

He trails off, dejected.

I give him a funny look and return to Mer. She’s upset, too, and I’m afraid I’ve missed something. No, I know I’ve missed something. I babble to cover the peculiar silence. “I’m so happy to be going home. My flight leaves at, like, six in the morning this Saturday, so I have to get up insanely early, but it’s worth it. I should make it in plenty of time to see the Penny Dreadfuls.

“Their show is that night,” I add.

St. Clair’s head shoots up. “When does your flight leave?”

“Six a.m.,” I repeat.

“So does mine,” he says. “My connecting flight is through Atlanta. I bet we’re on the same plane.We ought to share a taxi.”

Something twinges inside me. I don’t know if I want to. It’s all so weird with the fighting and the not-fighting. I’m searching for an excuse when we pass a homeless man with a scraggly beard. He’s lying in front of the métro, cardboard propped around him for warmth. St. Clair roots around his pockets and places all of his euros into the man’s cup. “Joyeux Noël.” He turns back to me. “So? A taxi?”

I glance back at the homeless man before replying. He’s marveling, dumbfounded, at the amount in his hands. The frost coating my heart cracks.

“What time should we meet?”

Chapter twenty-three

A fist pounds against my door. My eyes jolt open, and my first coherent thought is this: -ai, -as, -a, -âmes, -âtes, -èrent. Why am I dreaming about past-tense -er verb endings? I’m exhausted. So tired. Sooo sle—WHAT WHAT WHAT? Another round of rapid-fire knocking jerks me awake, and I squint at

my clock. Who the heck is beating down my door at four in the morning?

Wait. Four o’clock? Wasn’t there something I was supposed to—?

Oh, no. NO NO NO.

“Anna? Anna, are you there? I’ve been waiting in the lobby for fifteen minutes.” A scrambling noise, and St. Clair curses from the floorboards. “And I see your light’s off. Bril iant. Could’ve mentioned you’d decided to go on without me.”

I explode out of bed. I overslept! I can’t believe I overslept! How could this happen?

St. Clair’s boots clomp away, and his suitcase drags heavily behind him. I throw open my door. Even though they’re dimmed this time of night, the

crystal sconces in the hal make me blink and shade my eyes.

St. Clair twists into focus. He’s stunned. “Anna?”

“Help,” I gasp. “Help me.”

He drops his suitcase and runs to me. “Are you all right? What happened?”

I pul him in and flick on my light. The room is il uminated in its disheveled entirety. My luggage with its zippers open and clothes piled on top like

acrobats. Toiletries scattered around my sink. Bedsheets twined into ropes. And me. Belatedly, I remember that not only is my hair crazy and my face

smeared with zit cream, but I’m also wearing matching flannel Batman pajamas.

“No way.” He’s gleeful. “You slept in? I woke you up?”

I fal to the floor and frantical y squish clothes into my suitcase.

“You haven’t packed yet?”

“I was gonna finish this morning! WOULD YOU FREAKING HELP ALREADY?” I tug on a zipper. It catches a yel ow Bat symbol, and I scream in

frustration.

We’re going to miss our flight. We’re going to miss it, and it’s my fault. And who knows when the next plane will leave, and we’l be stuck here all day, and I’l never make it in time for Bridge and Toph’s show. And St. Clair’s mom will cry when she has to go to the hospital without him for her first round of internal radiation, because he’l be stuck in an airport on the other side of the world, and it’s ALL. MY. FAULT.

“Okay, okay.” He takes the zipper and wiggles it from my pajama bottoms. I make a strange sound between a moan and a squeal.The suitcase final y

lets go, and St. Clair rests his arms on my shoulders to steady them. “Get dressed. Wipe your face off. I’l take care of the rest.”

Yes, one thing at a time. I can do this. I can do this.

ARRRGH!

He packs my clothes. Don’t think about him touching your underwear. Do NOT think about him touching your underwear. I grab my travel outfit—

thankful y laid out the night before—and freeze. “Um.”

St. Clair looks up and sees me holding my jeans. He sputters. “I’l , I’l step out—”

“Turn around. Just turn around, there’s no time!”

He quickly turns, and his shoulders hunch low over my suitcase to prove by posture how hard he is Not Looking. “So what happened?”

“I don’t know.” Another glance to ensure his continued state of Not Looking, and then I rip off my clothes in one fast swoop. I am now official y stark

naked in the room with the most beautiful boy I know. Funny, but this isn’t how I imagined this moment.

No. Not funny. One hundred percent the exact opposite of funny.

“I think I maybe, possibly, vaguely remember hitting the snooze button.” I jabber to cover my mortification. “Only I guess it was the off button. But I had the alarm on my phone set, too, so I don’t know what happened.”

Underwear, on.

“Did you turn the ringer back on last night?”