“Please, say something.”

“I’m not sure what to say, Calla,” he begins, his voice even. “It’s not crazy to have a kid at twenty-seven. And I’m thirty-two. Five or six years sounds like a long time to wait for me.” He chews his lip. “We’re living together, we have a house, and more than enough money to get by.”

“Yeah, but a baby changes everything, Jonah. It’s permanent. It’s for life.”

Jonah’s jaw tenses. “As opposed to what we are?”

“No, I didn’t mean it like that. I’m just …” I search for the right words. “We’re barely settled here. I’m still trying to figure out what I want my life to look like. Is The Yeti going to turn into something big enough to keep me busy all day? Will I be happy doing that for the rest of my life? Am I going to go back to school? Are we going to stay in Alaska long-term? And what about traveling? I want to take a vacation with you at least once before I’m trapped at home with diapers and bottles and whatever the hell else comes with all that. I’m just … I’m nowhere near ready to start popping out babies!”

The questions and wishes and doubts fly out of my mouth in rapid fire, and Jonah’s expression … well, it looks like he just had the wind knocked out of him. “I’m not saying no to kids, Jonah. I do want one or two eventually—”

“No, I get it.” He releases my hands to hold his up in the air in a sign of surrender. “It’s okay, Calla. Really. You’re right. It has been only a few months.” He voices these words, but his frown says something different.

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologize.” He shakes his head. “I’m always pushing you to be honest with me about what you want. Or don’t want, in this case.”

“So … What are we going to do?” A fresh wave of panic hits me as reality sets in and I look down at my abdomen.

Is there a human growing inside me?

“I guess”—he pauses, searching for words—“we need to find out for sure first. There’s no point worrying until we know for sure.”

As usual, Jonah is right. “I’ll do a test as soon as we get home.”

Uncomfortable silence fills the cabin, the previous nostalgic mood obliterated, replaced by something sour. Jonah has stepped away from me—to give me space, perhaps?—his hands now occupied with his coat pockets.

I’m searching for the right words to get back to our previous conversation when Jonah sighs heavily. “Maybe we should head back. I don’t think either of us will be able to think about much else.”

That’s probably for the best.

I barely nod before he’s moving for the door.

I steal another glance behind us but all I see are jagged mountain peaks. The cabin and valley are long gone from view.

Jonah has been chattering back and forth with another pilot on our frequency. I can’t tell if it’s because he’s enjoying the idle conversation with a stranger, or if he’s avoiding conversation with me.

Right now, I’m fine with either.

A baby.

I take a deep breath, trying to reconcile myself with the concept of becoming a mother at twenty-seven years old. It certainly wasn’t part of my plan. Then again, moving to Alaska wasn’t, either.

If there is anyone’s baby I’d want to have, it’s Jonah’s. I’ve felt the desire, in momentary flashes and twinges, whenever I’ve seen him watching a child at the grocery store with amusement. He’ll make an excellent father—a quality I never even considered in any guy I dated until I met him. These facts tell me that I’ll get there, eventually.

But we’ve only been living together for five months, in this house for not even three. It’s far too soon. We’re just finding our bearings as a couple. Things between us are perfect.

A baby would change that.

I think of Sharon, twenty-three and sitting in the receptionist desk at Wild, her belly bulging, her ankles swollen, rocking a passenger’s mewling newborn. She confided in me that she’d been waiting to have a baby since she was seventeen, after her first date with Max. The fact that I’m feeling nothing more than shock and fear tells me that no matter how much I love Jonah, I’m not ready to go there yet.

A warm hand slips over my thigh. I turn to meet Jonah’s furrowed brow. He offers me a thin-lipped smile but says nothing. He doesn’t seem to hate me for my glaring lack of excitement about our predicament, but he can’t hide the disappointment in those blue eyes.

Jonah is ready to go there now.

“When do you have to work again?” I ask, craving a safe topic of conversation.

“Day after tomorrow. I was thinking we could fly out to Bangor. Visit Wren’s grave and see Aggie. Yell at Mabel, get her to smarten up.”

“Yeah, because rebellious teenagers respond well to that,” I say sarcastically, noting how he emphasized the “was,” as if flying west is no longer an option.

“Maybe not, but I need to say something before she fucks up her life—” He stops talking abruptly and frowns at the gauges in front of him.

“What’s wrong?”

He curses under his breath.

“Jonah?”

His attention darts between the sky ahead and his panel, up and down, up and down. Not answering.

My pulse begins to race. “Jonah, what’s going on?”

“Just, uh … an issue with the oil pressure,” he says in an oddly calm, detached tone that only makes his words sound more ominous.

“What does that mean?”

“It means we’re gonna land.”

“What. Like now?”

“Pretty much.”

I scan our surroundings. Everywhere I look are jagged mountains and trees. “Where?”

He chews his bottom lip in thought as he studies the river below us. “I think I remember there being a lake up ahead. Around that bend.”

“You think?” Everything looks the same around here. People have gotten lost following the wrong river; they’ve crashed into mountains, misidentifying peaks and making the wrong turn.

He pulls a map from a side pocket, instructing me to open it up as he angles the plane to fly lower. “Can you find Rainy Pass on there?”

“I … uh …” I fumble with the paper. “I don’t know.” In our office, with the map stretched out, I’ve gotten pretty good at reading these things. Cramped in a tiny plane as we descend toward the trees? Not so much.

“Here. Lemme see.” He keeps a keen eye on our flight path as he traces a river down through the mountains. “Yeah, there. I think that’s up ahead.”

It’s the second time he’s said, “I think.”

“Can’t we turn around and fly back to the cabin?”

His gaze flickers to the gauge again. “No. You’re buckled in, right?” He does a quick glance over.

My adrenaline surges as a mental flash of twisted metal and rivulets of blood running down Jonah’s forehead hits me. A scary day that I never wanted to repeat, and yet here we are. This time, in the mountains, where there are far bigger things to hit than a crop of field stones. “Jonah, are we going to crash?” I hear the panic in my voice.