The Wonder Page 79
A tiny shake of the head.
The O’Donnells were hovering behind him.
The priest picked up Lib’s cue. “Do you wish to make your confession, child?”
“Not now.”
Rosaleen O’Donnell knotted her knobby fingers. “Sure what sins would she be after committing, lying there like a cherub?”
You’re afraid of her telling him about the manna, Lib said in her head. Monster!
“Will we have a hymn, then?” asked Mr. Thaddeus.
“There’s an idea,” said Malachy O’Donnell, rubbing his chin.
“Lovely,” gasped Anna.
Lib offered the glass of water, but the child shook her head.
Kitty had sidled in too. With six people in it, the room felt unbearably full.
Rosaleen O’Donnell began the verse.
From the land of my exile
I call upon thee,
Then Mary, my mother,
Look kindly on me.
Why is Ireland the land of exile? Lib wondered.
The others joined in—the husband, the slavey, the priest, even Anna from her bed.
Then Mary, in pity,
Look down upon me,
’Tis the voice of thy child
That is calling on thee.
Wrath was a spike in the back of Lib’s head. No, this is your child, who needs your help, she told Rosaleen O’Donnell silently.
Kitty sang the next verse in a surprisingly sweet alto, all the creases of her face smoothened out.
In sorrow, in darkness,
Be still at my side,
My light and my refuge,
My guard and my guide.
Though snares should surround me,
Yet why should I fear?
I know I am weak
But my mother is here.
Lib grasped it now: This whole earth was the land of exile. Every interest, every satisfaction life could offer, was scorned as a snare for the soul bent on hurrying to heaven.
But the snares are in here. This cabin held together by dung and blood, hair and milk—a trap to hold and mangle a little girl.
“Bless you, my child,” Mr. Thaddeus said to Anna. “I’ll look in again tomorrow.”
Was that it, the best he could do? A hymn and a blessing and off went he?
The O’Donnells and Kitty filed out after the priest.
No sign of Byrne at the spirit grocery. No answer when Lib knocked on his door. Might he be regretting the kiss?
All afternoon she lay on top of her bed, eyes as dry as paper. Sleep was a distant country.
Do your duty while the world whirls, her teacher ordered.
What was Lib’s duty to Anna now? Deliver me out of the hands of my enemies, Anna had prayed. Was Lib her deliverer or another enemy? I’ll stop at nothing, Lib had boasted to Byrne last night. But what could she do to save a child who refused to be rescued?
At seven she made herself go downstairs and have some dinner, as she was feeling faint. Now broiled hare lay in her stomach like lead.
The August evening was stifling. By the time Lib reached the cabin, the dark horizon was swallowing up the sun. She knocked, tight with dread. Between one shift and the next, Anna could have slid into unconsciousness.
The kitchen smelled of porridge and the fire’s perpetual blaze. “How is she?” Lib demanded of Rosaleen O’Donnell.
“Much the same, the little angel.”
Not an angel. A human child.
Anna was weirdly yellowish against the dull sheets.
“Good evening, child. May I look at your eyes?”
The girl opened them, blinking.
Lib pulled the skin underneath one eye down to check it. Yes, the whites were the buttery hue of a daffodil. She threw a look at Sister Michael.
“The doctor confirmed it was jaundice when he looked in this afternoon,” murmured the nun as she fastened her cloak.
Lib turned to Rosaleen O’Donnell, standing in the doorway. “That’s a sign that Anna’s whole constitution is breaking down.”
The mother didn’t have a word to say to that; she received it like news of a storm or a distant war.
The chamber pot was dry. Lib tilted it.
The nun shook her head.
No urine passed at all, then. This was the point to which all the measurements were leading. Everything inside Anna was grinding to a halt.
“There’s to be a votive mass tomorrow evening at half past eight,” said Rosaleen O’Donnell.
“Votive?” asked Lib.
“Dedicated to a particular intention,” explained Sister Michael under her breath.
“For Anna. Isn’t that nice, pet?” asked her mother. “Mr. Thaddeus is offering a special mass because of you not being well, and everyone will be there.”
“Lovely.” Anna breathed as if it required her whole attention.
Lib pulled out her stethoscope and waited for the other two women to leave.
She thought she heard something new in Anna’s heart this evening, a gallop. Could she be imagining it? She listened hard. There: three sounds instead of the usual two.
Next she counted the breaths. Twenty-nine in a minute; speeding up. Anna’s temperature seemed lower too, despite the heat of the past two days.
She sat down and took Anna’s scaly hand. “Your heart’s starting to jump. Have you felt it?” Something about the way the girl lay, arms and legs held so still. “You must be in pain.”