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A sharp clap made me jerk. I swiveled on the now-warm tile and saw Audric sitting on the couch. He clapped again. And again. The rhythm was mocking and insulting. Knowing I had been an idiot, I broke the circle, the energy that powered it feeding back with a little snap and buzz along my limbs. Audric studied me, face impassive. When he didn't speak, I stood and began to put away the accoutrements of the conjure, my face burning with embarrassment.

I swept up the salt and dumped it in a large plastic bag labeled CONJURES, USED, put away the candles and stones. Finally I placed the Book of Workings on its shelf and carried the silver bowl to the kitchen sink, where I drained it. I laid the stones on the cabinet on a towel to dry, and polished the bowl with a soft rag. When I had nothing else to occupy my hands I forced my feet across the room to the rocking chair and sat. The chair seat was upholstered, wood arms carved in lion claws. And still my teacher said nothing. When I couldn't stand it any longer I said, "Two questions. How long were you listening? And just how bad did I screw up?"

"I entered as she was telling you about Lolo's state of health. And very badly. You were a fool."

I flinched again, ducking from his contempt. "I'm sorry. I let my mouth run away when she insulted me."

"And now the acting priestess knows your weakness: pride. You have declared war on her and given her a weapon to use against you. You boasted away your greatest strength. The wheels. A strength you did not trust your champards with," he said sadly. Shame washed through me. After a pause, Audric said, "Have I misunderstood? Do you wish to be priestess?"

"Plagues and blood! No!" I exploded. I stood again and walked to the kitchen, to make a second pot of tea, to busy my hands. "Sit around all day in meetings and listen to self-important mages and humans conduct trade negotiations? Set policy for the Enclaves? Keep a circle open just so communication is available? Have to ride to the nearest human town to make a simple phone call or check the Internet? Mate where and when they tell me to? Spend all my time building political power? No way, Audric."

I heard him release a pent-up breath. "But you will have to return to Enclave someday. And now you will be forced to either make obeisance to elan or fight her."

I put the kettle on the stove, braced my elbows, and hung my head. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

"It is time to begin protocol lessons. We will begin with dance. Come here."

I raised my head. "The town is sealed off from outside help. The Dragon is free, or almost free. I may have no choice but to call mage in dire again, and risk killing every human in town, and you want me to dance?"

"When emissaries reenter Enclave from the outside world, they are expected to enter correctly. Do you know the routine? Do you know the steps to properly approach the council? To approach the priestess? Can you perform a full court curtsy, head to the floor, hands up and out to the sides like wings, knees close together, body bent tight? And rise without aide? In a dress? You have declared war. I intend to give you the weapons." He stood and rolled the rug back from the living space. When he straightened, he said, "Come here."

I cursed. Audric laughed. And then he made me dance. For an hour he worked on foot placement, which, oddly enough, was a lot like the foot placement in fighting stances. He made me do hip slides and circles and a rhombus circle, which was a highly sexual move with a little belly cant and thrust, as if I was throwing a coin out of my belly button. He made me do camel hips, which was a joke, skinny as I am. He made me watch in mirrors as I did chest slides, and I looked like a monkey hit by a Tazer. The chest thrusts I tried were pitiful, as I had no boobs, and my chest circles were even worse. I couldn't do snake arms worth spit. But when the lesson was over, I felt looser and calmer and I could think better, my mind no longer fuzzy and mushy. As punishments for shooting off my mouth went, it was relatively painless. I thought I had gotten off well. Until Audric informed me I had to appear before the town fathers to plan for the defense of Mineral City. I had been summoned, and he hadn't bothered to tell me. Now I was late. Cheeky mule.

With my champard's help, I dressed in full battle dobok, all my weapons and amulets in place. When I let my neomage attributes blaze freely, Audric asked, "Are you sure you want to do that?"

"Yeah," I said, looking at myself in the mirrors of the armoires. "I'm tired of hiding my light under a bushel."

Snorting with amusement at the New Testament reference, Audric followed me down the stairs and across the street. The sun was setting, a bright red orb low in the sky, tinting the clouds pink and gold and fuchsia. The eastern sky was plum-colored, and long shadows striped the ground. The snow picked up the reds in the sky, and the town was rosy with reflected light. But my breath puffed, and even through my gloves, my fingers felt the cold. My feet, still tender, ached with every step on the icy street.

"Watch your big mouth in here," Audric said as he opened the door.

The smells of yeast, sugar, cinnamon, and fresh bread hit me in the face with a mingled scent that smelled like peace and calm and home. Not war. My mouth watered. Four elders - Shamus and Ernest Waldroup, Culpepper, and Jasper - were sitting at a table in the back corner of the bakery, drinking from chunky mugs. A loaf of bread rested on a bread tray with a serrated knife. A tub of butter sat to one side.

The most senior fathers were dressed in casual clothes, gray and black tunics and leggings, their brown robes of office thrown over the chair backs. Two of the men wore visible bandages. Shamus, a thick slice of bread in one bony paw, waved me over. Ignoring Culpepper's annoyed look, Audric took up a place near the front windows, his back to the side wall so he could see both the table and the street.

"I don't know what I'm doing here," I said as I hooked a foot around a chair leg, pulled it from beneath the table and sat, "but I'll help any way I can."

Without preamble, Shamus set aside his bread and began clearing the table. He said, "As the sun sets, fires'll be lit at every street corner. We'll have patrols on snow-el-mobiles making circuits through the streets." He unrolled a map in the cleared place and put their coffee cups on the edges to hold it flat. "The fire truck's goin' here." He pointed to an intersection at the top of a hill. "Every family with a wood roof has been moved to the meetinghouse. The slate roof and stone walls will provide fire protection. We got plenty of ammunition. It came on the train with your mage friend, and the EIH is busy loading a store of rounds with Dead Sea salt. Double-aught buckshot and salt." At my raised brows, he said, "We have a common goal. Survival. The kirk has agreed to work with the heretics until this crisis is over."

"Then you'll go back to hunting them down and branding them on the cheeks?" I asked. So much for watching my big mouth.

Culpepper reared back in his chair, disgust on his face. "I told you she would be impossible to work with."

"She has a point," Ernest said. "And our hypocrisy and lack of compassion for others' views will be addressed when this is over, if we survive it. For now, let's look at the placement of snipers and sentries with radios. If anything untoward is sighted, word will be passed via radio and the kirk bell will be rung as an alarm. No one will leave his post to investigate; instead, men will come from the meetinghouse to survey the problem. Jasper?"

The young elder supported himself on one elbow and pointed to buildings on the map, indicating porches and second-story roofs, detailing where everyone was positioned. It all seemed pretty straightforward but I still didn't know why they needed to talk to me. When I said so, the men looked back and forth between themselves. After the silent decision, Jasper took the lead. "We know about the ward on your home. Can you, maybe with the help of that new mage, make one big enough to cover the town?"

"And how much would it cost?" Culpepper said scornfully.

I'd had enough scorn for one day. I boosted my attributes higher, making my skin glow with a fierce light. My voice cold as an ice cap, I said, "If I could protect the town I would have. For free, Elder Culpepper." The older man looked away, frowning. "But I can't. That kind of incantation takes a number of mages with synergistic and related gifts, or littermates who have found ways to meld their disparate gifts into a single function." I could tell they weren't understanding. "It takes more than two mages. Maybe seven or twelve working for several days. Cheran and I don't have gifts that would mesh or meld for any kind of working. But I do have these."

I pulled a dozen polished quartz stone rings off my necklace, each circular with a central hole. "I filled some illumination amulets. You can give these out to the sentries. I've charged them to activate at onset of full night. Have the guards tie them to long strings and hide them in a pocket so their night vision isn't compromised. If they need to see something at a distance, they can toss the amulet to the limits of the string and pull it back after."

I added twelve additional amulets to the pile, these made of various different stones, but none of them quartz, so that even the least familiar with minerals could tell them apart. "Healing amulets. You can give these to the fire and medic brigade."

"Not enough," Culpepper said. "We need protection for the entire town and you're holding out on us. How much do you want, mage?" He made the last word an insult. "What cost for your help? Our blood?" His face twisted with abhorrence. "Our young men?"

I stood, letting the chair legs scrape the floor, barely stopping myself from drawing a blade. The fathers froze at the faster-than-human movement and the screech of wood on wood, even Culpepper falling silent, realizing he had gone too far. Switching my gaze back and forth between the Waldroup brothers, I said, "I can't ward the whole town. I'm not powerful enough. No mage is. But I can fight. Do you want my champards and me in place for defense, or does working with former enemies not apply to mages?" I heard Audric sigh in exasperation, but I didn't care. I was beat up, used up, and worn out trying to keep this town safe, and the town fathers were bent on hatred.

"You are our town mage," Shamus said gently. "Just because some are trapped in the smallness of their own minds doesn't mean we don't need you." Culpepper had the grace to flush at the senior elder's soft reprimand. "We need you bad," Shamus said. "I believe it's why the seraphs gave you to Mineral City for a full year. You're part of the mercy of the Most High."

Suddenly I had no place for my hands. I balled them and stuffed them into my pockets. The Waldroup brothers and Jasper wore sober faces, and an underlayer of fear rode their souls. Culpepper stared at the far wall, not meeting my eyes, but at least his hostility was reined in. I let my attributes die away and retook my seat.

Shamus said, "We need all our fighters. We want you to rest until an attack. Experience says Darkness seldom attacks two nights running. No need for you to waste yourselves until the fighting starts again. And who knows? The army may find a way to get troops in here." Culpepper made a derisive noise in the back of his throat. I hated to agree with him, but I did.

"We do have one favor to ask," Shamus said. "Since you can't provide a ward for the entire town, would you be willing to allow the children to sleep in your shop until things return to normal?" I blinked and swallowed a reflexive refusal. "Parents can't fight when they're worried about their young."

Sweet Hail Mary. They're serious. "How many?" I asked, panicked by the petition, amazed that my voice didn't squeak like a trapped squirrel's. It was a reasonable request, but I couldn't imagine how we'd get all the town's children in the shop. It would be standing room only. It would be a madhouse. Spawn balls.

As if he couldn't see the terror blooming in my eyes, Shamus said, "Only those twelve and younger. About seventy indicated a desire to take advantage of the shelter."

Seventy kids under the age of twelve? I was pretty sure the shock showed on my face. I could hear Audric laughing under his breath.

"They'll provide their own cots and bedrolls," Shamus continued, "and the younger ones will double up, two or three to a cot. Some adults will stay over to care for them. I've seen your shop. It'll be tight, but they'll fit."

He had thought it through, and I didn't miss the verbs. Will, not might or could. Either he had known I'd say yes or he intended to insist. And clearly plans were already under way.

"I offer the shielded floor space in my storefront," Audric said from the door, not bothering to hide the humor in his voice. "There are also spaces in the stairwell at the top and the bottom of the stairs, though that area isn't heated. And there is room for more in the dress shop next to mine. Thorn's ward covers it as well, and I am certain the owner will allow the children to stay over. Together, we can easily accommodate seventy children." Audric laughed aloud. "It will be my mistrend's pleasure."

And then I understood. This was my punishment. And it would be ongoing. Seventy wild, unfettered, untamed kids running amok in my life. Seraph stones. Death and plagues. Blood of the saints! There weren't enough curses available for the horror. The men were still talking, this time about war, and now Audric was in the middle, offering suggestions as to tactics, weapons, and placement of prayer warriors for future battles. I just dropped my chin and sank into my misery. Seventy kids.

The sun was below the horizon, the sky deepening to plum and cerulean velvet when I crossed the street, Audric on my heels, and reentered Thorn's Gems. Bells clanged over the door and a roar blasted out. I stopped in the doorway. A fast scan showed me there were a couple dozen children and three adults in the display room, three toddlers chasing each other, arms outstretched, squealing. Bundles of supplies and bedrolls were tucked in the corners. Toys, dolls, stuffed animals, and cots lined the walls. Savory pork stew bubbled on the stove.

"Seraph stones," I whispered. They hadn't wasted any time. Audric chuckled under his breath and I resisted the urge to sink an elbow into whatever body part was closest. I managed a smile and a wave at Jasper's wife, Polly, who raced from the fireplace and enveloped me in a breath-stealing hug that rammed my head between her breasts. I felt myself flush with embarrassment even as I suffocated.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you," she said from over my head, rocking me back and forth, smothering me. "Thank you again and again and again."

Gently I pushed her away, filling my lungs, the grin I had faked becoming real. "You're welcome," I said. Okay. This wouldn't be so bad. I liked Polly. We could have tea. Visit. "The bathroom is in the back. It's clean. The floor isn't well insulated and gets cold, so keep the gas logs up high. And keep a kettle simmering on the fireplace so it doesn't dry out too much."

"You sound like an old mother hen," she said, squeezing my shoulders.

My flush deepened and I patted her arm, turned, and looked right into the lens of a camera. I caught myself before I cursed on live TV, but it was a near thing. Romona Benson, camera on a shoulder, stuck a mike under my chin. "You found a way to provide mage protection over the two buildings here." Behind her, the door opened with a jaunty jangle and a stream of kids entered. I stared at Romona, who was blond, like Polly, though with the polish of the big city. "Can you tell us why you can't cover the whole town?"

I could feel my smile freezing into a semisnarl. Audric, sensing that I was about to make a blunder, stepped up beside me. "My mistrend is working at the full extent of her gift. A ward for an entire town requires many mages working together." Before she could ask, he said, "The two mages in Mineral City have gifts that do not meld well."

Another voice took up the narrative. "And so, Thorn St. Croix of Mineral City is offering Thorn's Gems, and Darlene Smythe is opening her dress shop next door, making available all the buildings that are protected by Thorn's ward," Rupert said, stepping between the camera and me. "The children and the elderly of the town may sleep in safety for as long as needed."

The elderly too? I fought the need to sit down fast. So much for being asked to provide space. Someone sneaky had planned all this behind my back and the town fathers had dumped it on me. Looking at Rupert, I had a good idea who.

"Her champards will be bunking in with her," Rupert continued. "I have offered my loft, also under protection, to accommodate the numbers." He swept out an arm and the camera followed the motion, Rupert leading Romona into the human clutter. My friend and partner was dressed in navy robes, the cut made popular by the seraph Uriel, when he visited the White House last fall. His eyes were ringed with navy and his hair was loose on his shoulders. He looked fully healed. And spectacular. And very dramatic as he stared into the camera, gesticulating, talking.

However, I smelled blood and knew his back was still a problem. He ought to sit down, but I wouldn't spoil his fifteen minutes of fame by pulling him to a chair. Instead, I used the opportunity to slip upstairs to my loft. There were humans in the stairwell, preteens using the relative privacy to huddle and giggle, and still more in Rupert's loft, adults dividing up space and laying out bedrolls. I nodded weakly to them, slid into the privacy of my own loft, and closed the door, sinking against it. This sucked Habbiel's pearly toes.

It wasn't quiet. The building was old and the walls were thin, and the muted roar of many voices, punctuated by the occasional high-pitched scream, made their way through. Even here it was chaos, Rupert's and Audric's things piled in front of the couch, weapons and clothes and what looked like Pre-Ap board games, Scrabble, Yahtzee, a pack of playing cards. "Blow it out Gabriel's horn," I said. "I'm in hell."

Feeling trapped in my own space, I draped the amulet necklace over a chair back, changed into jeans and a fuzzy sweater, opened the Book of Workings, and looked up Trapping Darkness in Stone. The Book of Workings was constructed of blackberry ink on handmade paper. The book itself wasn't a thing of power, not a book of spells or incantations, nothing so mundane, only a guide, a map of sorts, showing mages the path to our gifts. It was divided into thirds and the directions for the incantation were in the final third of the book, the section dedicated to warfare. I seemed to be studying that part of the book often these days.

I had always believed that incantations seldom used blood for conjures, but had discovered that really difficult workings required either several mages or blood, though never on the full moon, which made it black magic. It was only the easy conjures, the daily incantations for cooking or heating bathwater or illumination that could be done with just the mind. If I had studied the book like Lolo had wanted for the ten years I was banished, I would have known that. There was so much I didn't know, so many misconceptions. I needed a teacher.

Cheran Jones came to mind, and I flipped through the sheaf of papers he had left. Nothing I could use. Mostly cryptic notes that hinted at solutions to several neat incantations, but nothing with a big arrow that said, "Do it this way!"

I could ask him, beg him, to teach me how to use the visa to call for seraphic help, but he hadn't done so himself last night, when his own life was in danger. Maybe there was some prohibition against calling for help, like the proscription from calling mage in dire unless a human innocent was near death, or a mage's life was threatened by humans or Darkness. Or maybe he was telling the truth. Maybe he was here to watch, judge, and teach me, but that didn't include saving humans in danger. There wasn't time now, but I would go to him in the morning and ask for his help. A small part of me insisted I didn't have to like him to let him teach me.

But for now, I had nothing, absolutely nothing, and a Dragon, a Prince of the underworld, was coming. Threads of true fear coiled under my skin, burning with cold. I stared at the incantation suggested by the new priestess.

Trapping Darkness in Stone was an incantation for seven mages. Big help there. It needed a lot of power. A lot. Power I didn't have. Unless I drew on the Trine again. Or on the wheels. Or commanded seraphs to help me. I closed the book.

If I drew on the Trine again - all that stored, polluted power, left there by the Darkness - it might warp me. Or it might bring the Darkness closer. I didn't know how often a mage could use Dark might before becoming Dark herself. If I drew on the wheels for a working this big, Amethyst would know. My guess is that she would kill me without a second thought. The only other way I could think of to perform the conjure was to command seraphs to help.

Cheran had drawn the conclusion in the battle in the street. I remembered his whispered word, omega. Something I didn't think about too much. I was an omega mage, among the most rare and dangerous of neomage traits, one that was poorly documented and scary as death and plagues and all the powers of Darkness combined. I could command seraphs in battle against Darkness. And I could command them in other ways too, if I didn't mind dying. Most omega mages died young when they overstepped the bounds of their gift and commanded seraphs in other things. And when mages died at the hands of seraphs, it was a bloody mess. Literally.

I wandered my loft, stopping at each window to stare out over the nighttime street. There were bonfires at each corner, the forms of men and women backlit by the flames. Snow-elmobiles whizzed past, moving shadows. It occurred to me that I should remain dressed in the dobok so I could race to trouble, but I couldn't stay battle-ready twenty-four/seven. Standing by, waiting, I hung my weapons, boots, and clothing on hangers on the open door of an armoire, within easy reach.

A knock sounded at the door at my back and without looking around, I called, "Come in." It opened and I saw Ciana, reflected in the armoire mirror, framed in the black space. She was wearing a pink shift and leggings, the seraph wings pin on her chest glistening with energies.

"Miss Polly thinks they're all here," she said. "You can set the ward."

I sighed and went to the bedside table, picked up the marble sphere that held the trigger. With a touch and a thought, the ward activated. Mage-sight blazed on and I felt, more than saw, the energies flow from the energy sink at my spring, through the ground and into the foundation. They rose over the first floor and up the walls to the roof. It was a powerful conjure, perhaps the most powerful I had ever tried. Ciana, who stood in the doorway, watching, glowed in mage-sight like a bright star. Not human. Not human at all anymore. My throat grew tight at the sight of her. She said, "Can I stay downstairs with the girls from school? I have a bedroll and extra blankets. And Uncle Rupert has a cot I can borrow."

"What did your uncle say? What did your father say?" Rote words. Important words. Lucas had divorced me. I was no longer her stepmother. My heart wrenched at the thought, as if it was squeezed in a huge hand. But if she heard what was in my mind, she didn't say so.

"Uncle Rupert said it was up to you. Daddy is out patrolling with the other men."

"Fine, then. But if you get cold, come back upstairs and get in bed with me."

"I'll be okay. Cissy can sleep with me. And they're going to roast marshmallows after supper." She cocked her head, a little-girl mannerism marred by world-weary eyes. "Will you be okay?"

I dredged up a smile for her. "I'll be fine." Liar, liar, pants on fire. I shielded my thoughts from her. She smiled so sweetly, the child of my heart. The tightness in my chest eased as she closed the door, leaving me alone. On its faint echo I thought, I could use you. I could make you help me trap the Darkness in stone, you and that pin. I crushed the thought, ground it to nothingness, and opened the fridge.

I had fresh green beans, rare and costly, and potatoes to add to the stew downstairs. I could pick the meat out of my bowl. I took the bag of beans from the crisper and with the other hand lifted the bag of potatoes from the countertop.

A sudden tightness gripped my belly, twisted up through my spine. A cloying heat touched my breasts and warmth flooded out into my limbs. Waves and waves of heat slammed into me, rolling over me. Mage-heat. My spine arched, throwing my head back. The bag of beans and potatoes fell to the tile and rolled as if drunken, ungainly wobbles that made me nauseous. My knees buckled and I hit the floor. I caught myself on my palms, the bright light of the fridge bathing me, throwing sharp shadows.

My side, punctured by the spur of Darkness, wrenched hard, as if all the muscles on that side contracted at once. As if the spur pierced me anew. I clapped a hand to my side and rolled forward, to the floor, across the beans, crushing them. My side was blazing hot, and the flesh deep inside rippled and spasmed. I couldn't breathe. Agony and mage-heat surged over me like an avalanche, exquisite and deadly. Tears and blood, I wanted.

And then, as if someone pulled a plug, it reversed. My back clenched and I flipped over on the floor, my whole body contracting. With a shudder that wrenched the muscles in my back, the heat and the agony were gone. I managed to inhale. "Tears of Taharial," I groaned, focusing on the rafters and crossbeams overhead. "What the heck was that?"

Beneath me was a lump of beans, a potato was under my thigh, but I didn't care. I quivered a final time in reaction to the sensations that had seized me. Overhead, the fans turned lazily, pushing warm air to the floor. Downstairs, a horde of children squealed with excitement.

When I could draw breath easily, I crawled to my knees and scooped up the bag of beans and chased potatoes until I had them all. Laying the bags of food on the kitchen table, I started to lift my sweater and paused, as my abdominal muscles tightened. I realized I was afraid. And fear had always made me angry.

Stubborn, I crossed the room and raised the sweater and under-tee, activated mage-sight, and looked at my side. The wound was worse. I had thought it was getting better, but the wound site on my left side where the spur had punctured me in two realities - one I called the otherness, or the here-not-here, and in this one - was worse. It was now an irregular, raised black ring with a bloody red center. In human sight it was more colorful, looking like an old bruise, purple center ringed with purplish black, greens and yellows swirling out. Like an eye, I thought. Like an eye from hell, staring out at the world from my side.

I had been better. A lot better. But I had kept the spur, opening myself up to reinjury and maybe even claiming should the amulet fall into the wrong hands. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I had kept a talisman of Darkness like some kind of memento. Someone in the street battle had realized I was under its control and had broken the spur, shattered it with a single blow. Audric? I remembered the sight of a big body, silhouetted in the light of a fire, raising up a weapon, two-handed, to the sky, and bringing it down. Smashing the amulet.

It had been nearly twenty-four hours since I was freed of its hold. Shouldn't the wound be healing? Unless...What had Audric done with the shards? I remembered the sight of the queen, dead or nearly so, broken down to dust and scooped up by the Dark tornado. Had Audric taken time to burn the splinters? Had he safeguarded the remains? Why had I just experienced both mage-heat and pain from the wound unless something seraphic - or not - had the spur?

I dropped my shirt and sweater and went back to the kitchen. I'd have to ask my champard just how much danger I was in now. I wondered if he would even know the answer.