There’s a fancy toilet in the bathroom, but it might as well be in a different city, it’s too far away. There’s a decorative vase resting near the bed.

That’ll have to do.

I barely have time to scramble over to it, buck naked, before my stomach is purging itself of everything I ate and drank in the last twelve hours.

As I retch, last night comes back to me in all its lurid detail.

And oh, was it lurid.

I clutch the ceramic vase to me and hurl again, though this time I’m not sure whether it’s from the alcohol or the memory of my bad, bad choices.

I can still feel Famine’s touch on my skin, his lips pressed against my pussy.

I let him eat me out. Good God. I let a horseman of the apocalypse eat me out.

At the memory I feel myself blush. Me, the professional prostitute, blushing—over oral, no less.

But Father have mercy, I’d enjoyed it too. And then there was our very painfully real conversation. He saw my scars, he got angry on my behalf.

I let out a shaky breath. Has anyone truly been angry on my behalf? There were my friends at the bordello—Izabel in particular knew about the beatings and she’d cursed my aunt a time or two. But even her indignation never had the same sort of depth and weight that Famine’s did. He looked at me last night like I deserved better—like if he could, he’d go back in time and erase my pain—or punish those who caused it.

And I can’t help but be … moved. So moved.

Which is awfully problematic because everything between me and Famine is supposed to go back to the way it was. That was the agreement.

So I need to stop thinking about him like things between us have changed.

When I trust that I’m not going to get sick again, I pad over to the dresser and pull out a filmy dress from the top drawer, this one the color of rouge.

There’s a half full pitcher of water and some stale bread sitting next to my bed, and my throat tightens at the sight.

Did Famine leave that for me?

Warmth spreads low in my belly.

Stop it, Ana. He’s just a bossy asshole that you’re reluctantly friends with.

… Friends with benefits.

That’s all.

I eat the bread and drink most of the water, and then, stomach sloshing, I crawl back into Famine’s bed.

But when I close my eyes, all I see are the memories of what we did in this bed for the rest of the night. No sex—but everything right up to it.

At least I don’t think there was any sex … things got a bit blurry there towards the end.

It doesn’t help that the memory of Famine’s deft hands and that cruel mouth against my skin is reawakening my lust.

Everything will go back to the way it was tomorrow? I had asked.

Idiot, idiot, idiot.

My mind is never going to wash away those memories. And until it does, things are not going to be the same between us.

Eventually, Famine comes for me.

I hear his footfalls coming up the hall. With every step he takes, my heart speeds up. The footfalls pause outside his room, and then the door opens.

Even though I’m curled up on myself, my back to the door, I can still sense the horseman’s eyes on me. My skin tingles with awareness.

Then those footfalls again. My pulse is pounding in my ears and I feel sick with anxiety and the worst sort of excitement. Oh, and legitimate nausea. That too.

Getting drunk is definitely overrated.

Famine stops a meter from the bed.

“What’s wrong with you?” His deep voice raises goosebumps along my skin.

God, he’s awful.

He’s also clearly having no problem returning to the way things were.

I bury my face in my pillow.

Does he even know about hangovers? If he doesn’t, I’m not sure I have the energy to explain.

I also hate that his voice is making my cheeks heat and my headache pound against my temple.

“Everything,” I mumble, drawing the blankets closer to me. “I want to forget the last twenty-four hours.”

“That would require more alcohol.”

I groan. “Never again,” I rasp. Just the memory of all those different liquors has me gagging.

Famine continues to stand there. “Are your regrets catching up to you?”

“They caught up a while ago,” I say.

“And?”

And?

I flip over to face the Reaper. “And what?”

Famine is looking at me funny, but I can’t say whether it’s my words or the sight of me so obviously sick. He crouches next to the bed and reaches a hand out, touching my skin. The moment he does so, I have a flashback to last night.

Tangled arms, tangled legs, his kisses down my breasts and between my thighs …

I have to take a steadying breath, just to push those memories away.

“Did we … have sex?”

He frowns. “You don’t remember?”

“I remember most of last night …” Enough to know the two of us let things get out of hand.

He grimaces, but he doesn’t leave. The Reaper’s gaze travels over my face, his entire expression full of yearning. In response, I feel my stomach clench in a very primal way.

He brushes his knuckles against my cheek, the action painfully kind.

“What?” I say eventually.

Famine shakes his head, then strolls over to my empty pitcher of water. “Do you want more? I know humans need absurd amounts of this stuff …”

My stomach flutters.

“What are you doing?” My voice comes out a bit hoarse.

Those green eyes of his move to me. Right now they don’t look nearly as apathetic as they should. “Is this a trick question?”

I don’t want the Reaper doting on me. That does strange things to my mind—and my heart.

“We made an agreement last night—”

Famine sets the pitcher back down. “Fine,” he says, looking unbothered. He turns his head towards the vase I vomited in and wrinkles his nose. “I’ll let you take care of yourself. Grab what you need and meet me in the front of the estate in an hour.”

Famine keeps his distance as I get myself cleaned up, and on the one hand I’m absurdly grateful for it, but on the other … I don’t know. His absence feels like a void has been opened up in me, one I didn’t know existed, and it’s making me feel restless. And that, in turn, makes me angry at myself.

“Stupid girl,” I mutter. Stupid for caring and stupid for pushing him away.

My head still pounds and my stomach is still unsettled. Riding a horse should be fun.

I gather a few items I want to take along with me—among them Rocha’s dagger, because fuck that dude. I shove them into a bag I find resting in the closet.

I leave Famine’s old rooms and cross the courtyard. Lying on the ground are the remnants of last night’s clothing. My gaze slides to it, and I feel heat gathering low in my belly.

Stop—thinking—about—it—Ana.

I enter the main building and nearly back out. The plants inside have run rampant, all but swallowing up the room. I glance back the way I came, and for the first time I register that outside, too, the plants in the courtyard have swelled, seeming to reclaim most of the space.

Facing the room once more, I take a deep breath.

There are no dead people in here. It’s fine.