Just the Sexiest Man Alive Page 84
Taylor nodded. “And then there were supposed to be posttrial motions and then likely an appeal, too. But today the plaintiff made us an offer we couldn’t say no to. It’s a great result. In fact, it was such a great result that, well . . . the firm said they’re going to make me a partner.”
Jason’s face broke into an enormous smile. “Holy shit—you’re kidding!”
“But I have to go back to Chicago.”
That wiped the smile right off his face.
He said nothing at first. He carefully set his glass of water down on her coffee table, unnecessarily adjusting it on a coaster as if needing a minute. Then he straightened up with his arms folded across his chest.
“So what did you tell them?”
Taylor met his gaze.
“I told them yes.”
They both fell silent.
Jason began to pace in front of the coffee table. He looked shocked. And angry. He appeared to be struggling for the right words to say.
“But . . . what about everything you have here in Los Angeles?”
Taylor shook her head. “It’s up or out at my firm. If I don’t go back to Chicago, I don’t have a job.”
“That’s the decision they force you to make? Then screw your job.”
Now that fired Taylor up. “Oh well, I suppose that’s easy for you to say. Do you even remember the last time you saw anything less than seven figures on a paycheck?”
For her sarcasm, Jason rewarded Taylor with a glare. It made her feel quite defensive.
“I’ve worked really hard for this,” she told him. “Three years of law school followed by six years of killing myself at that firm. I worked nights, weekends, even holidays. All that, and your only advice is ‘screw your job’?”
Jason circled around her. A floodgate seemingly had been opened.
“Oh, you want my advice? Okay, let’s see . . . Gee—I don’t know, Taylor, maybe you could find a new job. Here. Have you ever considered that? Did you even stop to consider the possibility of not running back to Chicago? Did you think about the fact that you might be walking away from something really good here? Did you once consider the possibility of giving—”
He stopped suddenly. Catching Taylor’s gaze, he shifted uncomfortably and regrouped.
“—Did you ever consider the possibility of giving L.A. a chance?” he finished.
But Taylor wasn’t fooled; she knew exactly what Jason had been about to say. But she, too, found it easier to dance around the subject rather than to actually say out loud what they both were thinking.
“There are a lot of things I like about L.A.’” she said carefully. “Things I like very much. But it’s too risky. What if things didn’t work out, Jason?” Her voice cracked a little as she said this. She collected herself. “With L.A., I mean.”
But Jason had caught her hesitation. He crossed the room to her.
“Taylor, look at me,” he whispered huskily. “Look at me.” He waited until her eyes met his. “You have nothing to worry about. Los Angeles is a perfect match for you. You belong here. You know that.”
He paused. Then he looked deep into her eyes and laid it all on the line. “You belong with me.”
Finally, it was all out there between them. No more games.
And as Taylor’s eyes searched Jason’s, she knew he was right.
He was her match.
Right from the very beginning, even when she had told herself that she hated him, he’d made her laugh. From the very beginning, he had gotten her. He knew her, he understood her. In so many ways, they were the same. She may have fussed and fought, but secretly she loved every moment they spent together. He was smart and witty and sexy as hell, but underneath it all, he was generous and kind and—surprisingly—as vulnerable as anyone else. Most important, he challenged her. And he drove her absolutely f**king crazy.
And that’s what made him perfect.
But.
As she stared into Jason’s deep blue eyes, she finally faced her deepest, darkest truths.
She had gotten lucky with Daniel, she knew that. After the shock of his cheating had worn off, she had been able to move on. Of course there had been some sadness, and mostly a lot of embarrassment, but nothing that she hadn’t been able to isolate and control with her usual degree of calm and collected coolness.
But that would not be the case with Jason.
If she trusted Jason and she was wrong, and one day she walked in on him with another woman, she didn’t think she could handle it. And even if she didn’t catch him red-handed, even if there wasn’t any cheating at all, even if he just got bored with her one day—after all, wasn’t that inevitable, Hollywood relationships never worked out—the simple truth of the matter was—
She would never get over him.
With Jason, there would be no calm and collected coolness. No feelings that could be isolated and controlled. It would be all or nothing, and Taylor feared that if she lost him, she would never find her way back.
So with a heavy but firm heart, she looked up at Jason and gave him her answer.
“I can’t.”
He stared at her knowingly. “You’re afraid.”
“Yes.”
They were both surprised she admitted this. Jason reached out and took both of her hands. He laced his fingers through hers.
“Tell me what it will take, Taylor. I’ll do anything you ask.”
So raw and naked were his words, she had to look away. Deep down, there was a part of her who ached to hear him say exactly that. Which meant that the scared part of her needed to stop him from saying anything else. She had to find a way to remain strong.