“And you’re worried that I’m going to see them and not like them?”

She gulped. “I’m not worried, I’m terrified.”

“Stripes, have I ever told you how much I admire you?” I asked, cocking my head to the side and looking at her curiously. She frowned bemusedly as she shook her head. I smiled and laid down next to her, propping my head up on my elbow so I could look at her. “I love that you’ve had a child. Your body did something magical. DJ is incredible, and you should wear your scars proudly because you created an amazing kid.”

Her eyes filled with tears as she looked at me so tenderly that it made my heart race. “Nate, you know sometimes you say the sweetest things that I’ve ever heard. I know you don’t think that you’re good with any of this mushy stuff, but you really are. Thank you,” she whispered, bending forward and kissing me again lightly.

I didn’t know how to answer that, so I did the only thing I could think of that would make her feel better. I gripped both sides of her swimsuit and pulled if off completely in one swift movement, throwing it on the floor.

As I ran my eyes down her body, I didn’t see any ugly marks that she would be worried about me seeing. I saw a few faded lines on her tummy – but they just added to her character, like a little DJ badge, a sign of how incredible a mom she was. Those marks didn’t turn me off in the slightest, in fact, for some reason they turned me on even more. I couldn’t help but wonder if a baby of mine would mark her body one day.

I looked back to her face; she was chewing on her lip so hard that I was concerned she’d split it in two. “Beautiful,” I whispered, crushing my lips against hers, kissing her deeply, showing her how much I truly meant those words.

She moaned into my mouth, looping her arms around my neck and pulling me on top of her again as we made out. I couldn’t keep my hands off her body. The way her skin felt under my fingertips, the taste of her tongue on mine, the way her chest rose and fell – all of it was hypnotizing me. My willpower was crumbling with each stroke of her tongue. I’d never wanted a girl more than I wanted her. When I looked down at her, her eyes were excited as a smile twitched at the corners of her mouth. I traced the line of her lips with my thumb, feeling my breath catch in my throat as her tongue flicked out sweeping across my thumb.

I gulped and traced my fingertips down her neck, across her chest, circling her hard ni**les but not touching them, smiling to myself as she arched her back pushing her chest towards my hand. But that wasn’t my destination right now. My fingers headed lower and lower until they brushed through her curls to the apex of her legs. I moaned when I felt how wet she already was for me.

She sucked in a breath through her teeth as I teased her with my fingers. “Nate.” The way she breathed my name made my dick throb and ache to be inside her. I looked away from her lustful face; I couldn’t take looking at that anymore because I wanted to give in. My body wanted me to just concede and give her what she so obviously wanted. But I still wanted to wait for those three words, and then there would be nothing in the world that would stop me being with her.

I kissed across her neck, sucking on her collarbone as I worked my fingers. Her hand tangled in the back of my hair, pulling gently as she gasped and wriggled under me, moaning my name in the sexy husky way that was making my whole body vibrate with excitement. One of her hands trailed down over my back, scratching gently with her nails, unconsciously making me grind against her. As her hand pushed down the back of my shorts, starting to guide them down, I pulled back slightly and shook my head.

“Just let me make you finish first,” I mumbled, crushing my lips to hers. I just wanted to give her my undivided attention. I knew that once my shorts were off and her hands were on me, that I would lose focus. I just needed to hear her moan my name some more first. She bit on my bottom lip as I pushed two fingers into her. I couldn’t help the little growl that escaped my lips at the feel of it, thoughts of what she would feel like clamped around my dick as I made love to her, were flooding my brain driving me crazy with desire.

“Christ, Rose, I’ve never been this turned on in my life,” I promised, kissing down her neck heading towards the soft peaks that were begging for my attention.

“Me either,” she replied, her voice wobbling as she spoke.

She was already gasping, wriggling under me, her fingernails digging into the small of my back, pulling me closer as I pumped my fingers inside her to the rhythm she seemed to like. Her skin tasted incredible, warm and mouth-watering. I sucked hard on her nipple before turning my attention to the other one, not wanting to neglect any part of her.

“Oh God,” she moaned. Her h*ps bucked up as her thighs clamped shut, trapping my hand in place as I felt her muscles ripple inside. I smiled against her stomach that I was currently tracing with my tongue. I nipped her skin gently with my teeth as I bent my fingers inside her, tracing her inner walls, making her legs shake a little as I pushed myself up to kiss her. She moaned into my mouth as her arms looped around my neck so tightly it was almost as if she were afraid to let go.

I smiled against her mouth as I slowly pulled my fingers out, making her whimper quietly and kiss me harder. Her hands trailed down my back, catching the waistband of my shorts, guiding them down. I kicked them off, still not breaking the kiss. One of her delicate little hands traced the line of my ass, brushing up my outer thigh. Anticipation of what I knew was coming made the muscles tighten in my stomach. I gulped as her fingers tickled across my hip, heading around to the front.

Oh God, I’m going to die. The waiting is actually going to kill me. Maybe I’m going to have a heart attack and then I’ll never get to screw her!

I closed my eyes as she traced one finger around the tip of my dick before gripping it in her little hand. I puffed out a big breath because of how nice that felt, but suddenly it was gone. I snapped my eyes open to see her frowning, pushing on my chest to get me off her. Immediately I started to panic, not knowing what I’d done wrong.

“Nate, what the? You have a piercing?” Her mouth dropped open in shock as her gaze flicked to my crotch.

Oh shit, I guess she wouldn’t know about that considering I’d not let her touch me yet! I looked down at the three little piercings that I’d had on the underside of my shaft. They were metal bars that ran under the skin with a small silver ball at the end of each one.

“Er, yeah. Is that a problem?” I asked, praying with every bone in my body that she wouldn’t have a hatred for them.

She didn’t say anything, just pushed me onto my back, bending closer to look at them. I held my breath as she reached out a finger, touching each of the balls in turn, tracing her finger across the skin, feeling the bar that you could feel just under the surface. When her hair fell across my stomach, I swept it out of the way quickly so I could see her face. I needed to know if she was horrified or not. I could take them out if she didn’t like it. I had them done years ago; they’d served their purpose, if she didn’t like them then I’d get rid of them for her, it didn’t matter.

Her face wasn’t horrified though. In fact, she looked kind of excited by it. Maybe she was imagining what it would feel like – they definitely benefitted the woman more than they did me.

“I bet they hurt so much when you had them done,” she said quietly. I gasped when she bent her head and kissed the top one, sucking on it gently.

“Fuck,” I muttered unable to censor my language because of how nice that felt.

She pulled back, her eyes meeting mine before she crawled up to my side. “I know you always call me a dirty girl, but you must be a dirty boy in order to have done that in the first place. The words pot and kettle spring to mind,” she teased, raising one eyebrow.

I smirked at her and tangled one hand into the back of her silky hair, pulling her closer to me. Our mouths were so close that I could taste her breath as it blew across my lips. She tasted like the strawberries that she’d eaten earlier.

“Then it appears we’re very well suited,” I countered, running my free hand down her back to cup her pert little ass. She nodded, tracing her nose up the side of my jaw as her hip rubbed against my erection.

“I already knew that,” she breathed, crashing her lips to mine again.

I kissed her back hungrily, totally ravishing her mouth with my tongue. I wasn’t ready to relinquish control yet, so I ran my hands down her arms until I got to her hands. I moved her hand away from my shaft as I flipped her onto her back, making her squeal as I headed back down to her br**sts again, I wasn’t finished with them just yet. My mouth took pleasure in her ni**les as my hands wandered her body again, memorising it, worshiping it.

My whole body was begging for more. This, being the first time I had seen her na**d, was not helping with the whole patience and waiting until she was in love with me thing. I wanted her so badly that it was actually hurting.

She rolled me onto my back, moving on top of me, panting for breath. “Do you have a condom, Nate?” she purred, grinding against me again, making my body tingle. I could feel how wet she was and the desire was almost killing me.

Condom? We’d agreed earlier than we weren’t going all the way until she was in love with me. Wait, is she in love with me? I looked at her, shocked. She couldn’t be, could she? She hadn’t said anything so she couldn’t be.

“What do you want that for?” I asked stupidly.

She laughed and nibbled on the edge of my jaw. “I want to start a water balloon fight, what do you think I want it for?”

I laughed. “Good one.”

She grinned and trailed her hand down to my chest again, stopping at my shaft, gripping it tightly, making the muscles in my stomach tighten. Her hand felt so good around me that I just couldn’t help but moan at the feel of it. She made that little excited purr in the back of her throat and pressed her lips against mine again. I wrapped my arms around her tightly, rolling so she was underneath me, then pulled back slightly, hovering above her, looking into her big brown eyes.

“Go on then… say it.” I smirked at her. I was so excited to hear the words that I could barely even remember how to breathe.

She gripped my ass, pulling me back to her again as she looked at me curiously. “Say what?”

“Well, you’re obviously going to confess your love for me. We agreed that this wasn’t going to happen until you fell for me, so I was just waiting for you to say it,” I teased, propping myself up on my elbows so I could brush her hair back from her forehead.

She gasped and looked at me, shocked. Oops, too soon for the love jokes. Damn it, shut the hell up, Nate and just make love to your girl like she’s offering.

“Nate, I-” She shook her head, looking at me worriedly.

“Exactly. I thought that’s what we were waiting for, until you could say it, and you obviously can’t, so we’re still waiting.” I shrugged and rolled off her, pulling her closer to me as I threw my leg over hers, trapping her against my chest. Just lying na**d with her, touching her, that was more than enough for now. I could wait.

“But it’s okay, I don’t want to wait any more,” she whispered, pressing her lips to mine.

I groaned. She was offering herself to me on a plate; I should have been rejoicing, flipping her onto her back and f**king her brains out. But the thing was, I was a little disappointed. I wasn’t ready to say the words either, but part of me was hoping that she would. I’d never had anyone say those words to me before, and I knew they’d sound amazing in her smooth silky voice. I shook my head, and she whimpered against my lips, almost making me change my mind and give her what she wanted. After all, I wanted it too, I hadn’t had sex for two months, and I was getting way to familiar with my right hand for my liking.

She pulled back giving me the puppy dog face, and I couldn’t help but smile. “Not the face, Stripes, come on that’s not fair. Let’s just wait, okay? We’ve waited this long. This is what you wanted, so let’s stick to it.”

She sighed dramatically and rolled me onto my back again, pressing her body on top of mine. “Fine. How about a sixty-eight then?” she suggested, raising one eyebrow.

I had no idea what that was, but I sure liked the sound of it! “And what’s a sixty-eight?” I asked curiously, knowing I would do it anyway whatever it was. I was always up for new things so whatever she wanted to try I would do.

“I’ll go down on you, and you can owe me one,” she replied.

I burst out laughing and cupped her face in my hands, pulling her closer to me. “I don’t like to owe people, so how about I pay you that now too?” I countered; this night was going to be in-fucking-credible!

She pulled out of the kiss and shook her head. “I want to see how that feels like on my tongue first. So far, you’ve done all the work. Girls like to hear a guy moan their name too you know,” she teased.

I didn’t say anything as her lips travelled down my chest, peppering open mouthed kisses on my skin. Her tongue darted out and flicked across my nipple, making me hiss through my teeth. She smiled up at me, her eyes playful as she just carried on her little kissing task, heading lower and lower.

I was in heaven, I really must be. There was a f**king angel on top of me right now, kissing my body and heading down towards my dick. This just couldn’t be real, I had to be dreaming this. She settled herself in between my legs, her fingers raking up and down my thighs as she just looked at my erection with an awed expression on her face.

Before I knew what happened, her mouth closed over the tip of my shaft. Immediately, my h*ps jerked up – it was an involuntary action because I hadn’t had any attention from a girl for so long. This was definitely the longest I had been without ha**g s*x or even being touched by a girl.